The other
day we had a new roommate in our room. She was a 35- year old woman amidst the
twenties-people in the room. It isn’t ambiguous that she must have felt lost. I
must say she must have a good observation that just the next day she told me, “I
have never seen a person as confused as you. *laughs*” This statement came when
I couldn’t decide whether to have breakfast first or go take a bath. Oh yes! At
times it takes me 10 whole minutes to decide things as simple as this. I guess
I could make anyone feel better who thinks he/she has lost her way in life
because I have always found myself “lost and obfuscated”. Well, jokes apart!
Unambiguity and uncertainty, both are a part of life and hence we all think
before we take up any big decision that might lead to a different road in life.
I often find myself making the simplest situations seem cryptic, not knowing
where to go, which path to take. There are so many people out there to tell you
what to do (especially if you’re a girl). I don’t mean to bring out the sexist,
feminist or misogynist view here, but let’s agree to the fact that there is
hell lot of gender stereotyping in our country and there is no escape from it
no matter how hard you try. Okay, I diverted here. Let me get straight to the
point why I decided to write this. Let me not make this “cryptic” for you. Let
me not make it apparent that this isn’t like a life which now and then feels
like a spider web. I write this because someday during the monsoons, this girl
realized that life was always about FINDING YOUR TRUTH. No matter if N number
of saints told you that there is no definite truth, but most of us love
categorizing things in two extreme directions. On one hand, we have our life mentors guiding us on what is right and what is not and on the other hand, at times we
find ourselves doing things that doesn’t fit into everyone’s right. Some of us
might have known by now where do we have to reach even if we don’t know a way
to it. Like that castle which you can see on the mountain top. Though not knowing the
way is blasphemous and there will be always at least two ways shown to
you every single time you are confused. Sure, we can choose to take the path
most travelled but remember there is a road from everywhere you step in. There
aren’t just circumscribed ways to reach your castle. The way to the top is
foggy. You can surely follow the voice of a known person you hear from a
distance, but remember there could be a shortcut that you might miss.
I know we
are compelled to find the best version of ourselves despite the
emotional turmoils. Someone wise once said, life is short and spending it well
isn’t always about following someone great. It is about having the conviction
to go your way and finding your truth. No comparing yourself to anyone, no trying
to fit in other people’s “right” even if it makes no sense to others. What is
the point if it doesn’t make you feel ten feet tall, if it doesn’t make you
feel extraordinary, if it doesn’t lead you to where you want to go. After all,
we only get one life. Why not spend it well. Why not be brave enough to be the
only ones whom it makes sense to. All I found out is that you do not have to
get consumed, you have to prevail.
“The
universe is under no obligation to make sense to you.” [Source: Google Images]
And neither are you.
Picture Courtesy: Google Images
And neither are you.
